Tuesday, May 14, 2013
I hit a wall
I am nowhere near mile 20, but this is how I feel this week. I started this journey 133 days ago. (No, I didn't count them, MyFitnessPal told me 3 days ago that I had logged in for 130 days in a row.). For 133 days, I have logged everything I put in my mouth. Since January 1st, I have walked or ran over 200 miles (plus another 600 "incidental" (non-exercise) miles. I've done Zumba at least 1 time (up to 4 times) a week. I've completed C25K and run over 3 miles without stopping at least 5 times.
Over the past month, I've been struggling to stay on track calorie wise. I'm meeting my numbers, but my choices aren't the best. I'm struggling with Pepsi again. But my I have been gaining and losing the same 2-4 pounds for about a month.
This week, I hit the wall with exercise. After finishing the C25K program, I was a little lost. Do I just keep running 5K? How do I move forward. I finally decided to try a 10K app that carried on from my C25K app. I did the first day: Run 10 minutes, rest (walk) 1 minute and repeat 4 times. This should have been "easy" (relatively easy!). When I run my 5Ks, it took me most of an hour. A 10 minute run should have been a piece of cake. But, apparently, I let too much time pass. (Sporadic running for about 3 or 4 weeks). I have tried (and failed) to do day 2 twice.
And Zumba, my favorite exercise of all, has ceased being fun. I felt it last week, and I decided I just needed to give it another chance. Maybe the class with the other teacher would be better. But that didn't help either. I couldn't wait for class to be over.
I don't like this feeling. I know that dedication and discipline are not based on feelings. But it is hard to keep doing it when I just don't feel like it. Thus the wall at the beginning of the post. I feel like I have slammed hard into it.
When I was looking for a picture to illustrate how I felt, I found this picture too.
I do have a choice. And I am choosing to find a way over (or under, or around, or through) the wall. I will not let the wall beat me. It might slow me down. But it won't stop me.
Have you ever hit a wall? How do to get around it?